One of my favorite lines, from one of my favorite movies, said by one of my favorite comic actors, so perfectly expresses how I have been feeling since last Friday.
My mind is literally aglow.
Aglow with the most wonderful of thoughts.
Aglow from so many incredible comments from so many incredible people.
And what a wonderful contrast this is to the terrible week I’d had.
At work I watched people being horrible to others for reasons I can only imagine are because they believe they can. I watched my employer exploit the power they perceive they have over their employees by treating them disrespectfully. They seem to think because their employees are at the bottom of the employment food chain, because for their work they are paid minimum wage, they are somehow open to treatment that is substandard. I don’t believe that. I don’t believe anyone is less than anyone else, regardless of what position they chose to hold in the work world, or what gender they are, or if they are considered disabled, or what color their skin is, or for any other reason. I simply don’t allow that kind of thinking in my world.
So when I was then asked by my supervisor to lie to cover up their horribleness, I refused. I resigned. And fortunately I am in the position where I could leave. A part-time job can be replaced, but my principles can’t.
I tell you this because, see, while all this was happening, while I got sucked up in the horribleness of it all, I stopped doing the things I love. I stopped reading WordPress, I stopped reading my email. And during that time, a most wonderful, incredible, reconfirming thing happened and I didn’t even know it.
Until Friday that is, when I woke up and told myself the horribleness of the week was stopping and my happy life was once again resuming.
The first thing I did after this declaration was to check my email, and as I was logging in I thought to myself, “I haven’t done this in two days. I don’t ever do that.” And then my messages displayed, and I saw it – a message from WordPress that had been waiting for me for two days – my post No, Our Son Doesn’t Have Leukemia. He Is Autistic and Took Dexedrine had been Freshly Pressed.
Suddenly, with just one message, with just one nod, all the negatively of the past three days just washed away. Gone. Totally and completely. And all that I believe in lit up my world once again. And I have spent the last four days totally and completely immersed in wonderfulness that has come to me from around the world.
So much encouragement.
So much love.
So many people who believe in goodness as I do.
Thank you WordPress and thank you bloggers. You create for me the kind of world I like to be part of and I am so very grateful for this world. Your positive messages have filled my head so with so many ideas, with so many posts that I can’t wait to write, but right now I am overwhelmed in the most magnificent way. My head and the thoughts it holds are bouncing around and well, it just feels so good that I am going to let them keep bouncing for a while longer. Soon, really soon I hope, when those thoughts slow down and I can process all that has happened, I will write those posts, inspired by you and the comments you took the time to share with me.
For so long I thought I was just one small person and wondered what difference could I possibly make. How could my experiences help someone else? But through my blogging journey I have come to see through sharing, it is me who has been helped and that I have learned maybe the most valuable lesson of all.
No one is small.
We all have a voice.
We all have something to say.
And we all feel good being heard.
Thank you for teaching me that and thank you for listening.