Last Thursday I got my hair cut short.
I mean, REALLY short.
We had to go extreme because I wanted all the hair color cut off.
You see, I got my first grey hair when I was 19 and I have been coloring it since my mid 20′s, twenty years now, and well, I am sick of it.
So I got it all cut off.
When it was done, I was shocked.
I did not recognize the woman sitting in the chair.
My hair guy loved it.
“It’s beautiful,” he said as his fingers played in it.
All I could think of was, I’m not even 47 yet. I am not supposed to be grey until, well, I don’t know when, but, like, MUCH LATER. Not now.
When Neal got home that evening, I asked him what he thought.
I said, please, honestly, tell me what you think.
So he did. In two words…
I mean, no offense to Barbara, I am sure she is a wonderful woman, but, but…
A week before my 47th birthday, to think my husband thought of Barbara Bush when he saw me… well I went into a three-day long funk. I thought about how I will never naturally have brown hair again and how society perceives grey hair color, especially on women.
With a head of grey hair am I now old?
Well, today is my 47th birthday and a wonderful peace has overcome me, an acceptance of how I am and who I am has embraced me and I a happy. Neal and I now joke about Barbara and he says the new look is growing on him. That’s fair. Sometimes change takes time to accept. But accept we must. I love where I am in life. I love that I have accomplished what I have. My children are nearly grown and nearly the independent adults I have always hoped they would be. Soon I will be starting a new chapter in my life full of new challenges and adventures. And my new chapter begins with short, grey hair. I love it.
I feel beautiful. (And that’s not easy for me to say.)
I feel young. I feel sexy. I feel like I am what I want to be, not what I think others think I should be.
I feel like “a natural woman.” (Thank you Aretha!)
Here are some of my hair heroes…
And you know what, I think Barbara Bush just might be my new hair hero too. I mean GO BARBARA for being yourself. You are confident. You are authentic. You are a natural woman. Barbara, you rock!
images from google, well except mine, that one I did.